Ive waited a whole week
for the show to begin
ive waited so meek
to catch a glimpse of my heroes
my twin idols, best buddies, chum of chums
and it starts,
a breezy laugh
adorable inflections,
time nice twice,
never heard a reflection
and its over, a brief 420 seconds
my delectable sweet for a week
to savour in charmed remembrance
and await askance
for the next trickle treat
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Resuming Syuib's Qalam
My favourite writeup as some of you may know is Syuib's Qalam. Though it requires more attention to detail and creative writing and has since been on hiatus due to my demanding career. Now I am working to start again and pour my creative juices into it. However the 3rd post I have felt to be unsatisfactory and will then be scrapped. I will resume writing for a new 3rd post. I have big plans for Syuib's Qalam and will write a long story arc for it. I hope you guys can support it.
Anyway Syuib's Qalam can be read here at http://syuibsqalam.blogspot.com/
Thanks,
ps- I am also deciding to discontinue this blog but let it float here in cyberspace for any to read. Thank you to all who have read my work and commented wonderfully to it.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Scribblings
Suddenly scribblings of ink and lead start to appear on the white pages. They twist and bend, slowly forming markings and words.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Syuib's Qalam: The end of our lands
The wind blows steadily at my robe. The cloth flaps following the motion of the air. Standing unmoved, I await patiently and stare straight ahead. I await outside the tent with Farouk and Jamal, for they stand guard for our safety. Farouk with his eyes on the tent and Jamal on the lookout. A bird screeches above us.
Guards at the tent stare back at us suspiciously, holding their spears close. though the desert wind blows strongly now, these guards move not a single muscle.
"Does it usually take this long?" asked I.
"You know it yourself poet that the message must be delivered in its original form. The Caliph will take as long as he wants." replied Jamal.
I half-smirk half-wince, also trying to withstand the heat and blinding light. An eagle flies overhead.
After a while the reciting voices die out and the Caliph walks out with the tribesmen leader. A shaman perhaps, I am not sure of his status.
The leader has blond hair like that of sand. His eyes black like shadows, watching our every move. The Caliph and him shake hands and part ways.
"How did it go my Lord?" I asked but the Caliph simply nods to both of his henchmen and we are walking straight to our rides. He says nothing for the most part. I may not be familiar with the ways of Dawah but I can tell it didn't go as planned.
The Caliph holds his hand up high and gives the salam to our hosts. They wave back and we leave. We ride out of the encampment and continue into the desert.
"Where to my Lord?" asked Farouk.
"We keep heading Northwest, towards the frozen lands. The desert people have heard of us enough." answered the Caliph.
The winds start to die out, it is a calm quiet afternoon. Too quiet perhaps for the Caliph. He looks at the overhead sun and surveys the land carefully. He seems troubled by the journey ahead while I, can't seem to let go of our previous encounter. We have had many visits to various tribes and encampments yet we have achieved nothing.
Finally the Caliph slows down and moves towards Jamal. "Jamal, scout ahead and report back. I am sensing something wrong." commands the Caliph.
"At once my Lord" exclaims Jamal and with one fluid motion, jumps off his steed leaving his baggage. He leaves his robe and native spear on his ride and doing so exposes some parts of his spotted body fur. He lets his long feline tail hanging. I have heard some about Jamal's people, plains runners who at first hunted with their teeth but soon evolved into using more civilized weaponry. Now they are a proud race of hunters and farmers carrying their gifted personal spears wherever they go.
The African born stretches his limbs and starts to skip forward. He starts slow but slowly picks up the pace. Soon enough my eyes only see a mirage of his image running at incredible speed.
We move further forward albeit much slower than our athletic companion.
"My lord, if i would be so bold to say. Shouldn't we try to persuade them harder my lord? We come from the very same lands. We almost live the same way. Why waste our times speaking of peace when we can achieve faster results through slightly more aggressive persuasion. The end justifies the means as they say." I asked.
"Quiet yourself Poet. You know not the delicate ways of Dawah. Persuasion and aggression is always frowned upon by the Prophet. Do not question the Caliph's ways..." remarked Farouk.
"Enough. We have no time for this. I sense someone or something following us." interrupts the Caliph. He awaits something over the horizon, patiently.
And then suddenly in an instant, a bright orange light comes zooming towards us, faster than the desert wind. It comes crashing to a halt nearby creating a flurry of dust and sand.
I was shocked by this but both Farouk and the Caliph seem calm as if witnessing this before. They walk first towards the crash site.
Closer i found it to be only Jamal, crouched on all of his four limbs panting heavily and exposing his fangs. The hair on the back of his neck stands tall and tears run down his black streaks on his face. Farouk comes and gives him some water.
"I saw... (pants) a creature... (pants) running away as soon as it saw me... (pants heavily). I almost caught up to him but somehow... somehow it took flight and disappeared in the blinding desert sun. I have lost him since then." explains Jamal.
The Caliph frowns, "Worry not, it wishes only to observe us. If it was hostile it would've attacked us by now. Probably a scout for a bigger party."
"A scout? From the sand tribe?" I asked.
"Perhaps not. It has followed us even before we reached here. Never mind that then, we must continue our journey. Well done Jamal. Let us move."
"At your service my Lord" replies Jamal.
Jamal gets back on his steed and holds his spear close to his side. Ready, we ride out.
Farther up, our party leaves the desert sands and arrive to grassy plains. I look overhead, and admire the cloudy grey skies. This land is wet and cold. I don't like it. Even in this climate no birds fly overhead. Perhaps rain is coming or perhaps something else. My Arabian skin is easily irritated by water, especially cold rain.
I have never been to these lands. Neither have any of us but this is what we were set out to do. To travel northwest, meet new tribes and spread the word. I pray that the scout earlier isn't part of a more savage tribe. I pray that the natives aren't hostile. But I can only pray. The world holds many surprises. I have a feeling we will be meeting a native tribe soon, and I have a feeling it won't be a friendly encounter such as before.
Guards at the tent stare back at us suspiciously, holding their spears close. though the desert wind blows strongly now, these guards move not a single muscle.
"Does it usually take this long?" asked I.
"You know it yourself poet that the message must be delivered in its original form. The Caliph will take as long as he wants." replied Jamal.
I half-smirk half-wince, also trying to withstand the heat and blinding light. An eagle flies overhead.
After a while the reciting voices die out and the Caliph walks out with the tribesmen leader. A shaman perhaps, I am not sure of his status.
The leader has blond hair like that of sand. His eyes black like shadows, watching our every move. The Caliph and him shake hands and part ways.
"How did it go my Lord?" I asked but the Caliph simply nods to both of his henchmen and we are walking straight to our rides. He says nothing for the most part. I may not be familiar with the ways of Dawah but I can tell it didn't go as planned.
The Caliph holds his hand up high and gives the salam to our hosts. They wave back and we leave. We ride out of the encampment and continue into the desert.
"Where to my Lord?" asked Farouk.
"We keep heading Northwest, towards the frozen lands. The desert people have heard of us enough." answered the Caliph.
The winds start to die out, it is a calm quiet afternoon. Too quiet perhaps for the Caliph. He looks at the overhead sun and surveys the land carefully. He seems troubled by the journey ahead while I, can't seem to let go of our previous encounter. We have had many visits to various tribes and encampments yet we have achieved nothing.
Finally the Caliph slows down and moves towards Jamal. "Jamal, scout ahead and report back. I am sensing something wrong." commands the Caliph.
"At once my Lord" exclaims Jamal and with one fluid motion, jumps off his steed leaving his baggage. He leaves his robe and native spear on his ride and doing so exposes some parts of his spotted body fur. He lets his long feline tail hanging. I have heard some about Jamal's people, plains runners who at first hunted with their teeth but soon evolved into using more civilized weaponry. Now they are a proud race of hunters and farmers carrying their gifted personal spears wherever they go.
The African born stretches his limbs and starts to skip forward. He starts slow but slowly picks up the pace. Soon enough my eyes only see a mirage of his image running at incredible speed.
We move further forward albeit much slower than our athletic companion.
"My lord, if i would be so bold to say. Shouldn't we try to persuade them harder my lord? We come from the very same lands. We almost live the same way. Why waste our times speaking of peace when we can achieve faster results through slightly more aggressive persuasion. The end justifies the means as they say." I asked.
"Quiet yourself Poet. You know not the delicate ways of Dawah. Persuasion and aggression is always frowned upon by the Prophet. Do not question the Caliph's ways..." remarked Farouk.
"Enough. We have no time for this. I sense someone or something following us." interrupts the Caliph. He awaits something over the horizon, patiently.
And then suddenly in an instant, a bright orange light comes zooming towards us, faster than the desert wind. It comes crashing to a halt nearby creating a flurry of dust and sand.
I was shocked by this but both Farouk and the Caliph seem calm as if witnessing this before. They walk first towards the crash site.
Closer i found it to be only Jamal, crouched on all of his four limbs panting heavily and exposing his fangs. The hair on the back of his neck stands tall and tears run down his black streaks on his face. Farouk comes and gives him some water.
"I saw... (pants) a creature... (pants) running away as soon as it saw me... (pants heavily). I almost caught up to him but somehow... somehow it took flight and disappeared in the blinding desert sun. I have lost him since then." explains Jamal.
The Caliph frowns, "Worry not, it wishes only to observe us. If it was hostile it would've attacked us by now. Probably a scout for a bigger party."
"A scout? From the sand tribe?" I asked.
"Perhaps not. It has followed us even before we reached here. Never mind that then, we must continue our journey. Well done Jamal. Let us move."
"At your service my Lord" replies Jamal.
Jamal gets back on his steed and holds his spear close to his side. Ready, we ride out.
Farther up, our party leaves the desert sands and arrive to grassy plains. I look overhead, and admire the cloudy grey skies. This land is wet and cold. I don't like it. Even in this climate no birds fly overhead. Perhaps rain is coming or perhaps something else. My Arabian skin is easily irritated by water, especially cold rain.
I have never been to these lands. Neither have any of us but this is what we were set out to do. To travel northwest, meet new tribes and spread the word. I pray that the scout earlier isn't part of a more savage tribe. I pray that the natives aren't hostile. But I can only pray. The world holds many surprises. I have a feeling we will be meeting a native tribe soon, and I have a feeling it won't be a friendly encounter such as before.
Friday, August 31, 2007
Toddie: De Fact
*Intercom* You piece of shit! all I asked you to do is keep the reactor steady for 1 whole minute and you cant even do that! When this is over i'm gonna make you scrub the ship with nothing but a tooth brush!
Ass hole... he thinks he's the captain of this ship and he has control over Everything! If he can why does he take me to watch this engine!.... One day ill tell you one day when i get out of this .... this gloomy engine room! I'll blast the shit out of him! And ill knock first to say, 'Eat this Bitch!' before blasting him to kingdom come!
Ermmmm whats happening to my hands?
Its glowing! .... Oh noes... the shields are down.....
Help! Captain im being beamed by the enemy ship!....
*intercom* Toddie! Get the Reactor to full power! I need the Power for the blasters! Theres someone being beamed off... Im gonna blast that ship! ....-but sir! The person being beamed may get killed!
*intercom* Who cares! it Aint me! Blasting in 3 ....2 ....1..... Bwahahahahhaha!
-***** The engine room humms in the back ground ******-
Ass hole... he thinks he's the captain of this ship and he has control over Everything! If he can why does he take me to watch this engine!.... One day ill tell you one day when i get out of this .... this gloomy engine room! I'll blast the shit out of him! And ill knock first to say, 'Eat this Bitch!' before blasting him to kingdom come!
Ermmmm whats happening to my hands?
Its glowing! .... Oh noes... the shields are down.....
Help! Captain im being beamed by the enemy ship!....
*intercom* Toddie! Get the Reactor to full power! I need the Power for the blasters! Theres someone being beamed off... Im gonna blast that ship! ....-but sir! The person being beamed may get killed!
*intercom* Who cares! it Aint me! Blasting in 3 ....2 ....1..... Bwahahahahhaha!
-***** The engine room humms in the back ground ******-
Friday, August 24, 2007
Lacy Splinters : Facing You
I had been scrubbing this tub for the last hour.
Before that I had washed the bedsheets.
Before that I did the laundry.
My bathroom is spic and span now.
But as I stopped whatever I was doing, flashback flooded through my mind like a broken dam.
Holographic recordings of MY husband fornicating with another woman. The way he kissed her all over. The way he touched her. The way he made her feel how I felt.
I threw away the brush and grabbed my hair, pulling it till my scalp threatens to tear. Slowly I slide down the wall to sit on the floor.
My whole body hurts now. Not just my stomach in a knot. My skin itches so bad I scratched it till it bled in certain places. My head is pounding like a Taiko drum in a Japanese summer festival. My eyes sees blotches of colors, it no longer desires any focus. My body trembled like I had Parkinson's.
Then there was a brief sound of keys jumbling before the main door creaks open.
He's back.
Oh my god...
Ohmygod
ohmygod
ohmygod...
What do I do? How do I act? He's going to see through me that I am not going to act normal.
Hell.
Why should I even try to act normal?
This was never my fault.
"Hunny?" I heard his call.
"Hunny where are you?" he's entering the bedroom.
I looked up the door and kicked it shut, effectively pushing on the lock button as well.
I need to think.
How to confront him?
How?
......
...
He knocked on the door. "What's wrong, hunny?"
I tried to drown his voice.
I hate that voice.
I'm disgusted.
Help me...
Before that I had washed the bedsheets.
Before that I did the laundry.
My bathroom is spic and span now.
But as I stopped whatever I was doing, flashback flooded through my mind like a broken dam.
Holographic recordings of MY husband fornicating with another woman. The way he kissed her all over. The way he touched her. The way he made her feel how I felt.
I threw away the brush and grabbed my hair, pulling it till my scalp threatens to tear. Slowly I slide down the wall to sit on the floor.
My whole body hurts now. Not just my stomach in a knot. My skin itches so bad I scratched it till it bled in certain places. My head is pounding like a Taiko drum in a Japanese summer festival. My eyes sees blotches of colors, it no longer desires any focus. My body trembled like I had Parkinson's.
Then there was a brief sound of keys jumbling before the main door creaks open.
He's back.
Oh my god...
Ohmygod
ohmygod
ohmygod...
What do I do? How do I act? He's going to see through me that I am not going to act normal.
Hell.
Why should I even try to act normal?
This was never my fault.
"Hunny?" I heard his call.
"Hunny where are you?" he's entering the bedroom.
I looked up the door and kicked it shut, effectively pushing on the lock button as well.
I need to think.
How to confront him?
How?
......
...
He knocked on the door. "What's wrong, hunny?"
I tried to drown his voice.
I hate that voice.
I'm disgusted.
Help me...
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Lacy Splinters : The button
I took a sip of my morning cocoa.
My eyes never left the brown package, sitting silently on the kitchen counter.
I don't feel like going to work today.
I took a deep breath and reached for the object in obsession.
Slowly I pulled off the tapes like a patient child opening her birthday present.
I take my time.
It revealed a portable hologram player and a few envelopes labeled 1 and 2.
Left the player on the table and started looking through envelope 1.
There's a letter. I guess it's for me...
-----
Hi, you don't need to know who I am. But just know that your husband was involved in another marriage sometime earlier. It's somehow a contract marriage.
You see, I had accidentally divorced my wife. But I had since regretted my decision and I wanted her back. But in order for that to happen, she has to marry someone else, consummate, then divorce her current husband before she can come back to me. It is a tedious task, but I must have her back. I have my reasons.
So she chose one of her ex-boyfriends, which happens to be your husband - sorry to say.
I can imagine the feeling of your stomach knotting as you read this.
As you imagine you husband kissing another woman.
As you imagine them making love.
All these while the trust you nurtured in your relationship, all crushed due to the knowledge of this fact.
His whispers of I love yous...
His promises of your solitude with each other...
Lies...
His kisses which are now shared by another stranger - on your part.
THEY are reliving their younger days...
While YOU sit alone, betrayed...
Why am I telling you all this? Well, you see... I am, a very very spiteful and bitter person. All my life I have been. And I don't really fancy the fact that my wife(ex?) has to go through your husband before coming back to me. And there is also a chance she would not leave your husband at all. Then you will have to share him. And she wont come back to me. Therefore I spite your husband. I hate him with all my guts.
So I send this to you.
I'm sure he didn't mention ANYTHING to you at all... did he?
He's always your loving husband, loyal... a man of his words(?) A person with a calm attitude, albeit too calm it is now serving as his facade in front of you.
Well, in the other envelope are the copies of their legal marriage papers.
In the player? Well, you will have to push the PLAY button to know what is inside. I'm sure you will be as sore as I am after watching it. But doesn't curiosity just kills you?
---
So reads the letter...
I never realized I was chewing on my own lips until I finished reading the letter, then tasted the tangy flavor of blood.
He is right. My stomach is in knots now. It hurts.
I scrambled for the other envelope and tore it open. There it was, the documents which pronounced MY husband and this other person, Man and Wife.
I chewed harder.
My fingers trembled even harder as I reached for the player.
Do I want to know?
Would anything else destroy me more?
......
...
'click'
My eyes never left the brown package, sitting silently on the kitchen counter.
I don't feel like going to work today.
I took a deep breath and reached for the object in obsession.
Slowly I pulled off the tapes like a patient child opening her birthday present.
I take my time.
It revealed a portable hologram player and a few envelopes labeled 1 and 2.
Left the player on the table and started looking through envelope 1.
There's a letter. I guess it's for me...
-----
Hi, you don't need to know who I am. But just know that your husband was involved in another marriage sometime earlier. It's somehow a contract marriage.
You see, I had accidentally divorced my wife. But I had since regretted my decision and I wanted her back. But in order for that to happen, she has to marry someone else, consummate, then divorce her current husband before she can come back to me. It is a tedious task, but I must have her back. I have my reasons.
So she chose one of her ex-boyfriends, which happens to be your husband - sorry to say.
I can imagine the feeling of your stomach knotting as you read this.
As you imagine you husband kissing another woman.
As you imagine them making love.
All these while the trust you nurtured in your relationship, all crushed due to the knowledge of this fact.
His whispers of I love yous...
His promises of your solitude with each other...
Lies...
His kisses which are now shared by another stranger - on your part.
THEY are reliving their younger days...
While YOU sit alone, betrayed...
Why am I telling you all this? Well, you see... I am, a very very spiteful and bitter person. All my life I have been. And I don't really fancy the fact that my wife(ex?) has to go through your husband before coming back to me. And there is also a chance she would not leave your husband at all. Then you will have to share him. And she wont come back to me. Therefore I spite your husband. I hate him with all my guts.
So I send this to you.
I'm sure he didn't mention ANYTHING to you at all... did he?
He's always your loving husband, loyal... a man of his words(?) A person with a calm attitude, albeit too calm it is now serving as his facade in front of you.
Well, in the other envelope are the copies of their legal marriage papers.
In the player? Well, you will have to push the PLAY button to know what is inside. I'm sure you will be as sore as I am after watching it. But doesn't curiosity just kills you?
---
So reads the letter...
I never realized I was chewing on my own lips until I finished reading the letter, then tasted the tangy flavor of blood.
He is right. My stomach is in knots now. It hurts.
I scrambled for the other envelope and tore it open. There it was, the documents which pronounced MY husband and this other person, Man and Wife.
I chewed harder.
My fingers trembled even harder as I reached for the player.
Do I want to know?
Would anything else destroy me more?
......
...
'click'
Son of a gun.
We're in this together. at least that is what I thought when I let the barrel out, piercing the thick skull of that filthy, sneaky, .....rat. It didn't occured to me, that, this act of villainy was never appreciated by my sole partner.
"What do we do now?"
And, he said nothing. He kept quiet, watching the room.
The guilt didn't strike him, or me. I know that we did it for a reason.
That when it strikes me.
I did it. But he pulled the trigger. He wanted to kill that man. He wanted to kill him. It wasn't me. Obviously it was him.
I got my guilt wrapped me. Bounded my cold hard shells. He left. Leaving me in the middle of the room.
Clean.
Now how could I ever possibly say anything. I can't express my anger, or my hesitant. Without no one to pull my trigger.
No. It didn't.
So I asked,"What do we do now?"
And, he said nothing. He kept quiet, watching the room.
The guilt didn't strike him, or me. I know that we did it for a reason.
That when it strikes me.
"WE?"
I did it. But he pulled the trigger. He wanted to kill that man. He wanted to kill him. It wasn't me. Obviously it was him.
I got my guilt wrapped me. Bounded my cold hard shells. He left. Leaving me in the middle of the room.
Clean.
Now how could I ever possibly say anything. I can't express my anger, or my hesitant. Without no one to pull my trigger.
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